As his body squirms down into the soft fold of white sheets, his arm comes up to form a hook that fits perfectly around my neck, pulling me down into his bed next to him. The way his arm hooks around my neck gently pulls my face directly into the side of his. I breathe deep of him, while my lips graze his perfectly smooth skin. I can’t breathe deep enough, so I take repeated breaths, wanting to store it away, bottle it up for the day that smell is no more. The day he won’t need me to tuck him in.
And then I listen. To the sounds that will disappear one day. The crook of his arm still securing our faces together, he uses his other hand to hold onto his Boppy, his beloved security blanket, while he sucks his thumb. And he breathes deep. Mimicking my sounds.
It has become a moment we share each and every time I tuck his sweet little boy body into bed. Some may say I’m spoiling him because he is the baby, our last. I’m ok with that. I am in fact spoiling him. I’m spoiling him with my love. Cherishing the gift that God has given me.
During these moments, I pray. Sometimes silently, sometimes so he can hear me.
His reach is for more than my physical touch. It’s for security, comfort, and love. He wants to feel me as close to him as he possibly can. We long for the same thing from our Heavenly Father. I am eager to provide him exactly what he needs. Just as our Father is. I will make him feel safe in his bed. I will comfort him when he is frightened. I will shower him with kisses and hugs to show him my love. Just like our Father will for us.
I can only imagine how our Father desires to lavish His love on us. How He is breathing deeply of us, desiring that we breathe deeply of Him. Because when we breathe deeply of Him, we will be filled with more comfort than we’ve ever experienced, more peace than we’ve ever dreamed, more joy than we thought possible, more love than we are capable of showing, and more power than we possess on our own.
Breathe deep of His love. Let Him fill you with more than you ever dreamed.
“The LORD your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing.”